Awareness

One of my room mates from college shared her story about infertility. Last week was National Infertility Awareness Week and I felt I should share our story as well for any of those who read this that might have to go through the same thing. (Thanks Krissy for being so inspiring!)

Overall, I have to thank my Heavenly Father for how He has blessed us. Over the last 4 years my testimony has been challenged and at time I didn't feel I deserved to have a baby...let alone 2 due to my lack of faith. We were blessed with Hyrum that after trying for 1 year we got pregant. It was a long year and towards the end of it we had started pursuing infertility help but got lucky! We now have learned what a miracle Hyrum was/is!

When Hyrum was 1 we decided we'd start trying again due to how long it took us the first time. 2 months later I was pregnant! Hooray and scary all at the same time ( I wasn't ready to have them so close.). 3 weeks later I miscarried. This was devastating to me but my dr told me this was normal...forget it and move on. 7 months later I was pregnant again but again lost the baby early on. Dr again said it was normal. Ben & I decided to take a little trip (Hawaii) and relax and give it a little more time. We tried IUI in the mean time with no success. Finally 14 months had gone by with no success. We decided to consult for IVF.

I have to say I had to eat some words when I decided to do this. My first REAL job in a big NICU in Virginia taught me that IVF was not a good idea and was pushing the limits. I saw premature after premature sets of twins or more born that eventually became blind, deaf, and had a very poor quality of life. Then a close friend had just gone through IVF and had delivered beautiful 37 week twins. My idea started to change. I saw some more success stories even here in our small NICU in Idaho. I was softened to the idea.

So we consulted and sure enough we would need help. One of us had an issue that prevents us from easily achieving successful pregnacy. I was thrilled that it should be an "easy fix" for us.

We had to go to Utah for about 6 weeks on and off to do this. Unfortunately it was a bad time for our families to help us so Ben & I really leaned on each other. We spent a week in Utah during the thick of it which was a really hard week but we made it! Shots, blood draws, and ultrasound every day for weeks were tedious and unpleasant but worth it in the long run.

We put two embryos in and 2 weeks later found out only 1 had made it. I was so grateful to just have one though and actually relieved...I was so worried about twins and Hyrum! We don't have many family/friends here to help us so 1 was great.

I can honestly say I've never been so happy. We had some scares during pregnancy but thankfully Heavenly Father pulled us through. I'm so grateful to Heavenly Father for letting me have such an understanding and patient husband that was willing to take this journey with me. I'm also so grateful for our two beautiful, healthy children! My heart is full! I'd love to have one more and as I relfect on the journey to get to here...I cringe. For now I'll enjoy every minute with my new baby and Hyrum!

I'm so grateful to be a mom and this is honestly one of those things I've always wanted to be more than anything. Happy Mother's Day!